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2009-11-27T10:11:00.000-08:00

Bac to my home agn..
feel abit boring..
my facebook dono y..
kena ban jor..
so sad...

Summore the line at home quite slow..
cant watch pps..
so the last thg i can do is blogging..
so boring..

Tmr plan to go out wit frens..
but who actually is free..
and can acc me = =
haiz..

Recently facing some problem..
i dono wad shud i do..
and the stupid exam is approaching..
i havent start my revision..
die..

haiz..
i thk i slp btr..
those thg juz throw thm beside..
nitez..

BBQ

2009-11-20T11:17:00.000-08:00

Juz finish BBQ and clear all the thgs..
damn tired now..
wtf my fren all after finish ate..
thn go slp..
fuck them..

Actually dis BBQ also organized at last min..
3 of my frens come from Balakong..
they ask us to organize..
if not im lazy to organize such BBQ..
lolz..

Im very full now..
my stomach full of sausages and beer..
quite suffer..
like wanna vomit..
haha..

And now starting to feel dizzy..
seems like goin to sick..
swt la..
juz finished 3 big bottles..
alrd feel dizzy..
haiz..
become noob jor..

Summore dis morning..
dono y keep cough..
until now stil caughing..
cough until like wanna vomit blood..
lolz..
seems like i ned more rest..
i dowan fall sick..

So,good nite or good morning..
to those who read my blog now..
haha..
im goin to slp =]

Random

2009-11-19T13:23:00.000-08:00

Nth to do..
so decided to write smth b4 i slp..
now juz 1 thg in my mind..
shud i cont or stop..
will it worth?

I thk it's a very taugh ques..
so i choose to let it happen naturally..
juz let thg go naturally
thn wait for the final result..
hope dat it is wad i wan..

dats all for now..
time to slp..
ciaoz..

Meteor Shower

2009-11-17T08:31:00.000-08:00

Heard from my frens..
and look from the internet..
i only noe dat 2nite hv meteor shower..
but mayb i cant enjoy it..

its raining here..
thr is only rain shower..
but not meteor shower..
summore tmr i hv class at 8..
and its my last presentation..
haiz..
wad a wrong timing..

heard ppl said dat..
if u see meteor or meteor shower..
make a wish quickly..
and ur wish will come true..

but seem like i dun hv the chance..
and it means dat my wish will nvr comes true..
from last time until now..
im making the same wishes..
but they do not come true..
bday wish la..
wish at the wishing pool..
bla bla bla..
none of thm come true..
how sad..

suddenly my house become so quiet..
one is sleeping..
and others in their own room..
but in the same row..
i heard a loud bday song..
they are celebrating sum1 else bday..
how irony is it..

is all for now..
im goin to call sum1 else..
which i used to thk dat..
im goin to success..
but at last stil the same ans..
haha..
how stupid m i..
still like sohai not giving up..

Untitle

2009-11-14T09:01:00.000-08:00

After a nite..
i stil cant 4get it..
word by word stil deep inside my mind..
y the ans stil the stil the same..
y all saying the same thg..
exactly the same..
izzit my destiny..
and i cant deny it?

Actually i shudn't thk so much..
mayb it was my own fault..
and shudn't put so much hope on it..
so whn fall..
i won fall so hard..

Luckily im good in pretending..
not much ppl..
or no one wil noe wad happen to me..
or how was my feel..

Whn im laughing..
mayb im happy..
or mayb im sad at that time..
but no one wil noe it..
sometimes i also feel tired of pretending..

But wad will happen if i tell thm out?
nth will chg also..
it's better i keep it for myself..
rather thn make others worry..

haiz..
shud i belive in myself..
or juz accept it as my fate..
i thk its very hard for me to get an ans..
for now..
cigarette and liquor are my best fren..
 

Goodbye my friend

2009-11-01T23:57:00.000-08:00

Its raining agn..
the weather is cool..
my heart more cold..
the sky also cry for u my friend..

tmr is the last day of ur funeral..
but sry i cant attend..
i cant even met u for the last time..
cos of the stupid test..
hope u dun mind..

i thought i will meet u in dis week..
but u juz left all of us without saying goodbye..
and u dun even gv me a chance..
to meet u..
how cruel you are..

no matter how..
u will always stay in my heart..
may u rest in peace..
and may god bless ur soul..

Condolence to my friend

2009-11-01T11:49:00.000-08:00

Wad to say now..
i had juz lost a friend...
i reli can accept the fact..
reli down now..

few days ago he stil the same..
but tdy..
he had left me and went to the heaven
all happen is too sudden..
i dono how to respond..

stil rmb the 1st time we met..
the days we enjoy 2gthr..
but now..
it had become my memory..

since dis sem start..
i havent met him..
but whn i heard the news about him..
he no longer alive..
=(

although i had learned a lesson..
but it was too expensive for me..
haiz..

to all my frens..
appreciate wad u hv..
and who u with..
life is too short for us to regret..

lastly,rest in peace my friends..
although some of u i juz noe for a short while..
but u all will stay 4eber in my mind..
long life my friends..
rest in peace..

New Sem

2009-10-18T13:09:00.001-07:00

Finally my sem break comes to the end..
tmr start will b my new sem..
i thk shud be ltr..haha
dis is my 2nd sem in UTAR..
hope every thg will be fine..

Dono y suddenly i feel emo..
lolz..
whn every1 slp..
and left me alone awake..
dat feeling will start to appear..
haizzz..

Hope dis sem all subject wil be easy..
last sem my result r sucks..
ply too much..
thought it will like every says..
UTAR is easier to study..
lolz..
but now i realise dat..
actually NOT..

Nothing is easy unless u put in effort..
if not the easiest thg will be the toughest..
but sometimes..
thr is smth no matter u put in how much effort..
if it is not belong to u..
u won get it..
sigh..
mayb i shud gv up..
but...

haiz..
i thk dats all for now..
time for me to cont my net surfing..

Sign of bored

2009-10-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

It was the 2nd week of my sem break..
but it seem like nth chg..
stil as boring as usual..
whole day facing the pc..
sien...
can sum1 save me?

dis few day my place keep raining..
i wanna go out but rain..
summore no transport..
so juz can stay at home and facing the pc..
plying facebook..
swt..

ktar student started ther new sem..
dat means my fren at hometown become less agn..
i also hope dat my sem start soon..
although it will be busy..
but atleast btr thn nth to do..
human owes complain too boring whn free..
owes complain tired whn busy..

my dad owes warn me not faing the pc..
do smth useful..
swt,wad useful thg i shud do??
so i decide go out wit frens..
sometimes i may come bac 'early'
actually is every time = =
thn my dad warn me agn..
said dat don't go out til so LATE!!!
haiz..

im so confusing...
do wad oso wrong..
i noe his advice is for my own good..
but the life of teenager for now..
is much diff wit last time larrr..
pls understand dat..
although im owes the kid in ur eye..
but atleast i noe which is rite..
and which is wrong..
but will my dad understand it?
lolz..

dats all for now..
hope the nex week come faster..
atleast i can travel and not stay at home..

Home..

2009-09-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

Finally i bac to Penang..
wahahah...
actually tdy is the 3rd day i back here..
long long time din post smth in my blog..
i rmb it after i saw other blog's link in msn..

somebody pls save me...
i thought i will feel boring whn stay at kampar..
who knows whn i bac here...
i also feel boring..
why why why...
actually,im kinda miss kampar life now..
lolz...
wtf wrong wit me..

at 1st im the one who keep grumble n grumble..
say dat kampar life is so boring..
but now say starting to miss it..
mayb after stay thr for a sem..
get used to the life at thr dy..

mayb all my frens here went to study..
nobody at here anymore..
those not goin study but they busy working..
im starting to rot staying at home..
wake up juz facing the pc..
thn slp agn...

any of my frens who stil at penang...
pls report urself to me...
jio me out yam cha..
jio me out watch movie...
juz jio me out...
the boredom juz killing my soul..

dats all for now..
goin out for dinner..
try find some fren accompany me.. =]

Back to Da HELL agn

2009-08-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

whee~~~~
im bac to kampar agn...
wtf..
im so fucking unwilling to come bac dis place..
i wanna stay in Penang...
but what to do?
force to come bac..
juz becos tmr hv class..
already skip it for 3 weeks..
haha...

the bar list is out..
i thk my name din appear inside the bar list..
cos din receive any call..
but tmr i wil go double check it..
hope my name reli din appear in da list..
god bless me = =

sob sob sob..
the final exam is approaching..
and i still cant understand..
all those subjects taught by lecturers..
wtf..
guess i need to plan and start my revision now..
or else i sure fail my exam..
and the worst is my ptptn gone..
lolz..

i thk dat all for my grumble..
goin out for dinner now..
fucking hungry cos i skipped my breakfast and lunch..

Isomania Again..

2009-08-04T16:06:00.001-07:00

Its already 7am in the morning..
i still sitting in front the pc..
facing the screen...
it was a sleepless nite again..

Long long time din post anythg in my blog...
i almost 4get that i do hv a blog..
but whn click on the new post button..
i dun hv any idea wad to type in..

It was the 2nd month i live in kampar..
actually the environment here not bad la..
except no shopping mall,
no cinema,
no club and bistro,
no spicy food..
the rest is ok..haha
but i still very miss Penang..

Recently my fren ask me a question..
y dun u find a gf??
since UTAR hv many leng lui..
im stun and dono how to ans..
but whn i thk bac..
i feel dat im kinda lazy..
cos ned put in alot of effort..
and im quite enjoy wit my single life..
cos i can flirt any hot chicks i want XD
but whn i saw others hv a sweet and pretty gf..
i start to feel envy..
thk dat it will be so good if i hv a pretty gf like him..
my feeling is so damn complicated..
and now more worse..
all my frens had found their partners..
feel quite unconfortable whn we whole gang outing..

I will stop until here...XD
Good morning every1 and good nite for myself.. =]
im goin to force myself to sleep..
or else i will die ltr..
cos stil hv an assignment waiting me.. T__T

Back!!

2009-06-26T10:27:00.000-07:00

Finally im bac to Pg agn...
home sweet home..
really like here alot..
compare to Kampar..
but soon im goin bac agn..
long long time visit my blog..
due to no internet service at my hostel..
ned wait til July..

Shock to hear dat..
the King of Pop - Michael Jackson
had passed away..
he was my idol whn i was a child..
juz because of his Moon Walk..

Juz went bac to tar college dis afternoon..
take my graduate gown..
and attend the stupid rehearsal..
not much changes at Tanjung Bungah..
quite miss dat place..
There r 22 hr and 20 min left..
before my graduation ceremony..
but im not excited at all..
juz hv a weird weird feeling...
haiz..
i thk is time 4 me 2 bed..
prepare 4 tmr ceremony..

Congratz to all TARC student
Hu successfully gradute
All the best to u all
And GOOD LUCK
Especially my frens

Bye bye 28

2009-05-09T10:46:00.000-07:00

Tmr i wil goin bac to BM..
mean i ned to say bye bye to my lovely hostel..
2nd time i say good bye to my hostel..
1st time was 23..
now 28...
actually moved in dis hostel for 1 year oni..
but stil hv relationship wit it la..
the housemate are superb..
frenly and kind even i am the new member..
this hostel gv me a great memory..
cos an sad incident of my life
happened since i move in here..
but now everything is ok now...
since i moved in..
it was the beginning of my insane clubbing life..
haha..
almost every week we hv a 'gathering' at MOIS..
lolz..
but now it had became a past tense le..
aiya, it was a part of college life..haha
the feng shui of my room also not bad..
stil got a balcony..
we always gather thr for men's talk..lolz
summore the night view also not bad..
but no more lo...
finish packing now..
found dat i juz hv a little thg to bring bac..
except my pc..
farewell 28..
whn free i wil come bac here to visit u..

Finally all comes to the end

2009-05-08T12:23:00.001-07:00

Juz like wads the title..
everythg had came to the end...
My diploma life was end...
my Penang life was end..
Diploma life, I will always miss u...
but now i reli had to say good bye to u...
u had brought me alot of hapinnes and sadness..
Thx alot...
Goodbye to my college..
Goodbye to my Penang life..
and goodbye to my fren and classmate..
Good luck to u all...
all the best in future..
someday sometime we'll meet agn..
I stil remember dat..
how excited was I whn I 1st time come to here..
but 2 years reli neither long nor short..
juz feel hard to say goodbye..
cos juz mix well wit many frens..
thn need to say bye bye to thm agn..
mayb dis is wad means the life cycle..
now the whole taman juz like a death city..
year 1 students all bac to hometown..
and second year students had moved out..
almost all of the hostel totally blackout..
i miss alot of thg at here..
the mamak stall whr i usually hang out and watch football wit frens..
all the hawker stalls dat i kill all my hungriness..
the cyber cafe which i ply DOTA wit my frens thr..
the snooker center and the stuff and customers..
the Gurney Plaza which i hv many memories thr..
the beaches and the sea..
and the club, MOIS..haha
and others bla bla bla..
soon i'll left Penang and start my degree course..
that wil b my new chapter of my life..
thn it wil be my another farewell to my frens..
i reli hard to say goodbye to u all la..
especially my lovely "Auntie"..haha
Best frens
Fhong, Alan, Sook Sin, Eddison, YZ, Donovan, KN, Javy..
and more..(sry for din mention =])
but dis is a process dat i must pass through..
juz hope dat someday we'll meet bac..
once agn c ya to Penang TARC..

The Game

2009-03-24T12:42:00.000-07:00

Light up a cigarette..
and start to thk..
Am i a dumbass?
its a very good question..
and i am finding the answer from year to year..
and wads now?
i found the answer finally..
its was YES..
for so long time..
im just a stubborn dumbass..
a stubborn dumbass who thk dat he is mature..
and can make his own decision perfectly..
i shud listen my parents advice..
dun ever listen to others easily..
cos u wil nvr noe who r the truth..
and who r the fake..
i hv made a fucking stupid mistake..
i shudn't step my foot inside the game..
for so long time..
i had nvr trust any1 easily..
but y i broke my own rule?
juz bcos a perfect and beautiful lie?
im too over confident of myself..
but now its too late for me..
its too late to realize dat..
i cant even handle the game..
the game was overpowered..
and the player was control by the game..
i hv no choices at all..
but only keep belif thr is a miracle..
hope its end as soon as possible..
so dat i can quit from dis fucking game..
im tired of plying dis game..
but i cant quit juz bcos the game is stil running..
wad i can do is juz blogging..
a place to tel out all my sorrowness..
i hv to take a good rest..
the game keeps goin on tmr...

World From My Heart..

2009-03-23T13:34:00.000-07:00

没那种命陈小春（改版）

o.s:
这首歌，特别献给我最敬爱的“影帝”。
里面代表了我，Eddison, Winds, Hoo Yuan Zheng 的心声

钱财这东西没道理的有人很有钱有人没资格
路是人走的我害怕什么大不了别拿了
他像个影帝他太真了我那么平凡我不能明白
心里面晓得追他的结果幸运的不是我
唉
我没那种命呀他没道理给钱我影帝和骗子呐是一国的
只怪我们太傻了对手太好了劝自己别傻了
以前甭提了以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我金钱老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了机会渺茫了我剩下一个梦
他打过来说其实我到了来拿钱
music
他像个影帝他太真了我那么平凡我不能明白
心里面晓得追他的结果幸运的不是我
唉
没那种命呀他没道理给钱我影帝和骗子呐是一国的
只怪我们太傻了对手太好了劝自己别傻了
以前甭提了以后非加油不可
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我金钱老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了机会渺茫了我剩下一个梦
他打过来说其实我到了
唉
我没那种命呀轮也不会轮到我金钱老是缺货我争什么
时间越来越少了机会渺茫了我剩下一个梦
他打过来说（其实我到了来拿钱）

to:a fucker and a bitch

u fucker..
stop telling lies..
and stop all ur fucking empty promises..
bitch stop acting infront of us..
all i can gv u 2 is a DAMN..
if u 2 keep goin on wit ur fucking attitude..
u 2 dun deserve us to gv a fuck..

Bored..

2009-02-12T21:57:00.000-08:00

It was the 5th day of my sem break..
i was completely "sien" at home..
the same routine makes me feel bored..
surfing the same website..
watching the same movie..
listen the same songs..
the idiot exam spoiled all my mood..
as my CNY end together wit my final exam..
now all my frens bac to work..
all my college frens bac to hometown..
and juz left me alone at home shaking my leg..
doin nth..
i rather thr is no sem break for dis sem..
so i can spend more time wit my frens..
hang out wit thm..
now i hv to search my contact list agn..
hope dat i can find sum1 who is free to hang out wit me..
this is the 1st time i so hate my sem break..
i hope the date of college reopen can chg to sooner..

Rest..

2009-02-08T23:49:00.000-08:00

Finally the deadly exam had came to the end..
finally im free can play hiong hiong..
finally i can rest after din slp for few nite
haha..
but the chinese new year also came to the end..
i havent visit my frens and take ang pao ar...
haiz, y my exam time table so sucks...
time pass really fast..
my time at TAR college juz left 7 weeks..
and mayb my time in penang also juz left 7 weeks..
stil confusing where and which college to further my study..
but now i juz wanna enjoy my sem break...
cos i suffer for so long dy..
now i was thking to start my own career..
i no longer a boy who juz enjoy studying and slacking..
haha...
i wanna be rich..
no money no happiness...
i thk dat time i wil be very miss my study life..
especially during secondary..

Exam..

2009-01-19T01:09:00.000-08:00

Finally the day i hate the most had arrived..
lolz...
but tdy stil ok la..atleast stil can answer..
the second paper got bit difficult..
mayb im weak on dat =.=..
haiz,after CNY stil hv to cont exam..
wad the fuck...
summore tdy was the 3rd day for me suffering of sore throat..
tdy woke up found dat i lost my voice..
haha...
mayb it is time for my mounth to rest..
lolz..
but for me nth different..
cos recently love to being alone..
so lost my voice oso nvm...
aiya,if reli wanna chat stil got many ways la..
msn,facebook or sms lo..
haha...
feel so tired now,mayb ytd juz slept for 3 hrs..
take a afternoon nap 1st..xD

"Last for the sem,last for my fren"

2009-01-11T08:24:00.000-08:00

lol...finally this sem comes to the end..

dat oso mean dat last time for me appear at M.O.I.S..
for dis sem la...
haha..
for nex sem stil dono xD...
but i thk wil not so often go to thr le ba..
my fren gonna move bac to BM dy..
besides i oso feel abit boring dy..
eveytime the same...
the same music,the same ppl and the same ending..
but atleast the most recent 2 times stil ok..
cos went thr wit a bunch of buddies ma..
but i stil hope can go wit the person..
for atleast 1 time...
Hope....Hope...Hope...
lolz...

Shopping..LOLz

2009-01-06T12:06:00.000-08:00

Wad a tiring day dy..
went to Perangi and Pacific Komtar..
shopping wit frens for whole afternoon..
swt..
i also cant believe dat i went shopping..
no doubt..i hv to buy new clothes for new year..
but juz bought 3 shirts..
wad to do?im broke..
and also feel tired...
wanna buy a jeans but cant find any suit me..
now start to wonder y ladies can shop for so long..
and not even feel tired..
r they born to be shopholic?
or they take shopping as their exercise..
lolz...
I need to buy a new jeans and a pair of shoe for CNY..
Arrgh...
mayb tmr wil go QB for shopping agn..
OMG..is dat me?
mayb it wil happen once a year ba..
only b4 chinese new year..
because i stil dun hv gf..haha..
no need to shop often
but mayb need to start training now..
so dat whn the day i hv gf..
i wil hv enuf energy to accompany her shopping..lolz
but stil dono whn the day wil arrive..
mayb stil long long time to go..
haha..

Tiring me >.<

Sleepless Nite

2009-01-04T13:16:00.001-08:00

sien..bac to hostel agn..
although its abit boring..
but at least btr thn stay at home..haha..
recently stay up until very late..
cant slp early at all..
because of exam stress?
bullshit la,exam whr got stress..
but more a while..
the storm of notes and books will arrive..
stil hv to study for my exam..
everytime whn i cant slp..
many questions sure appear in my mind..
y college life not as wonderful as my imagination..
i thought i wil hv a wonderful college life..
hv a pretty gf..lolz..
everyday juz a few hour tutorial and lecturer
enjoy and shaking leg all the time..
all the time hangout wit frens..
no need to worry dis and dat..
but now i realise how foolish m i..
it is impossible..
very miss my secondary sch life..
at least it gv me lots of memories..
a bunch of insane frens..
doin insane thgs..
with no worries..
but all hv become past tense..
few more months i wil gradute from dis college..
(hopefully can la)
although i hv very good classmates..
also doin many insane thg..
but the feeling not as my secondary sch time..
mayb our time 2ghtr not dat long..
our relationship stil not dat close..
y success is a extreamly difficult thg for me?
izzit my attitude..
i thk so..
haiz..
y "smth" ppl can get easily but its sounds so hard for me?
i get many ans for dis ques..haha..
mayb its not the right time..
mayb its not the suitable 1..
mayb thr is btr 1 waiting for u..
bla bla bla...
haiz,i thk i shud force myself to slp btr..

time fly

2009-01-01T08:32:00.000-08:00

Time pass reli fast la...
now alrd 2nd of jan..
my 1st of jan juz pass like dat...
drunk and slp whole day..
thn whn wake up alrd evening..
haha...
alrd 19 years i wasted..
but stil done nth dat make me proud of it..
mayb "success" is a very very difficult thg for me gua..
but "failure" had became my best fren =.=
swt la,my age gonna start wit 2 liao..
summore now 1 step nearer to final exam..
but i stil prepare nth..
haiz,dono how to handle dis final exam..
hope everythg go smoothly..
lastly,hope all bad luck get away from me..
I WAN BE A LUCKY GUY!!!

Farewell 2008 wit sickness

2008-12-30T22:21:00.000-08:00

haiz..finally fall sick le..
fever plus food poisoning..
i hate sick ar..
summore fall sick at 31 of december..
swt la..
seem like 2nite cant ply hiong hiong le la...
anyway,goodbye lo 2008..
thx for bringing me lots of happiness and sadness..
haha..
its time to welcome 2009..
hope a new year hv a brand new beginning..
and oso hope all thg soon soon li li..
especially the coming final exam...

New beginning...

2008-12-29T01:17:00.000-08:00

haha..long long time din write blog dy..
recently too boring...
so decided to write bac blog XD..
dat old FS blog i thk i won use it nemore..
i wanna have a new begining..
thr's nth special bout my blog..
juz a place for me to write out my feelings..

for those stuff dat make me happy,make me angry & make me sad..

PS:juz wake up and found nth to do
ytd 7 am oni slp =.=

~*Words From My Heart*~